Life Suckers

I'm all for new experiences. I approach new opportunities with enthusiasium (most of the time), eager to try something new.

This time however, I have met my match.

I have been exploring work-from-home opportunities almost since the day after I lost my job out in the "real" world.

Not for nothing, but I am very content living in my "world" where I interact with a select group of people.

I spent years working outside the home in various positions where I learned how to cope with difficult customers, co-workers and bosses. I'm done. I paid my dues.

Not everyone "fits in" to the 9 to 5 role. I sure don't and I am not apologizing for that either. I am who I am and I like me.

I decided to take a temporary position working from home for a call center. With a crash course in training for this position, I felt like I was dumped into the deep end of the pool, bound in duct tape. I don't like the feeling.

Silly me has these morals that I want to do a good job. I am not a slacker and I give too much when it is obvious to me that others seem to get by giving their job minimum effort.

Needless to say, dealing with customers can suck the life out of you. I feel so drained after a 6 hour shift that I am zombie-like.

I have done customer service work before. Although I was always complimented for how well I did the work, inside I hated it. Sometimes I just didn't feel like talking to anyone.

In my current position I have the double whammy of wanting to help but still trying to figure out how exactly how to navigate the programs I am working with.

It is serious work that I am doing. If I screw up, some kid may not get his Halloween costume on time.

To a kid, Halloween is the holiday (next to Christmas for some) and you've got to have a costume!

Personally, I made my kids Halloween costumes from scratch but that's just me.

I was hoping to juggle my new temp position with my self-employment efforts but so far, I am failing. I have got to figure out a way to breeze through a shift without feeling my blood boil over some customer's stupidity or frustration over not feeling confident about what I am doing.

This is why people drink I imagine. You have to find something to help relax you after you have been pushed to the edge of insanity from the stress of your job.

I don't drink so I guess I am just going to have to keep looking.

Maybe when my migraine finally leaves I can write an article about this. Possible title "How to Know What Job Is Not For You".

Have you even had a job that just wasn't "you"? We sometimes do what we have to for a paycheck but sometimes the paycheck is just not enough. What do you think?