Today I turn fifty. Yup...I said it outloud (well- publicly)
Am I flipping out? Nah. It is just a number.
The reality of fifty is that mortality of it. Since I very much doubt that I will live past 100, I guess I am beyond middle-aged. That doesn't scare me but it does bum me out.
There is so much more that I want to do. So much more that I want to experience. I sure hope I will have enough time to do it all.
Most people who do not know me would be surprised to hear that I am fifty. I don't look fifty. I sure don't "feel" it- whatever fifty feels like.
I sure don't feel old.
That is the funny part of it. I can still vividly look back to milestones in my life and remember how I felt in each given situation. I can still relate to some of those feelings.
I have come very far and learned a lot (and will learn more) about life, relationships and my true place in this world.
Overall I have to say that I feel content today. I am proud of who I am, where I have been and most of all, where I am headed.
So anyone who thinks that I am flipping out, feeling old or "depressed" about turning fifty...well, you got me all wrong. The best is yet to come!