Showing posts with label challenges. Show all posts
Showing posts with label challenges. Show all posts

Suffering in Silence

Even though I have a blog that is dedicated to talking about mental illness , today I am going to talk about bipolar.

Catherine Zeta-Jones is on the cover of People Magazine this week and is sharing how she is battling bipolar 2 disorder. Anyone who knows anything about bipolar disorder knows that although there is treatment, bipolar is a horrible disorder to live with.

My article How to stop enabling your adult child was inspired by learning how to cope with my adult daughter's dual diagnosis. Being the parent of a bipolar child, adult or not, sucks. Plain and simple- it is a rollercoaster ride and as a parent, if you allow yourself to get sucked into the emotional ups and downs, you might even think that you yourself may be bipolar.

If you find yourself riding the waves of highs and lows along with your loved one who is bipolar, their dysfunction will become yours. Living with bipolar disorder doesn't mean that your life has to be full of chaos and emotional outbursts.

Education is the key to learning how to cope with bipolar disorder. As a parent of a bipolar child, I sometimes wish she had a different medical condition such as diabetes. To me, it seems simpler to deal with. I am sure that parents of diabetics have their own special and unique challenges. With a mood disorder, there are so many pre-conceived ideas about the hows and whys of it. Unless you live it, you cannot fully understand what it is like.

Drama Queen was also inspired by my dual diagnosis daughter. For me, writing helps to cope with my feelings. I can share what I have learned about mental illnesses and maybe even help another parent or loved one feel that there is hope.

We have ups and downs in our relationship but that is normal. My life is drama and laughter and bipolar only adds to both.

Like Catherine Zeta-Jones, I do not believe that anyone should suffer in silence. Whether you are diagnosed with bipolar or someone you love has bipolar, it is nothing to feel shame about. No one goes through life without some kind of challenge . My "message" today is to get everyone to stop and think before you judge what someone else may be living with. Try to educate yourself instead and feel compassion. We share this world together and understanding can make the ride smoother.

Mondays

Monday mornings. Those two words can bring a variety of emotions. To the long-term unemployed like me, it just means yet another Monday morning that I do not have a job to go to. It is days before Christmas so I very much doubt that any of the resumes or applications I have sent out are going to make a difference right now.
Seriously, not many employers are looking to hire anyone right before the holidays.
I accept that. Not much that I can do.
So as I sit here and wait for the holidays to come and be gone, I just try to hang on.
My unemployment ran out...no extensions left for me. Less one income when you are used to two is a lesson in how to live on even less.
Trying to have "faith" that "things" will get better is getting tougher.
I have bills to pay with little money to pay them. Christmas in my house will not be as plentiful as in years past.
That's okay...tons of gifts is not what Christmas is about.
This morning my car broke down. I have an idea what it is...not an easy fix for a DIY repair. Way too costly for me to take it somewhere. So now what?
I am fresh out of answers.
I am also fresh out of hope.
I know that I am not alone in my struggles. There are families that are worse off. I am grateful for having a roof over my head and food to feed my family.
I am grateful that my husband has a job.
I am thankful for my family and good friends who continue to encourage me and listen to me vent.
I just want someone to tell me when it is going to get easier.
I just want to know when I can stop getting hit with all these "challenges".
I, like many people have had enough.